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Chapter 18: Avoiding me, and the Mission

I had my answer…but that wasn’t the problem. I sighed at the world tree; she wasn’t here again.

Sense I brought her to the 4th division for treatment; she has been avoiding me even more so. But I know why now. “Sa-San…” I whispered standing before the world tree. She wasn’t there I keep trying to catch her there; but she never here when I come.

She is avoiding me…but I understand why now.

She’s trying to protect me; but I don’t want to be.

I want to be near you more than ever before…I want to be by you…close to you.

I don’t care about that curse; I will take the cruse if I can be near you; I really would. But you will not let me will you…Sa-san?

You’re far too kind, you know that? I think that’s one of the reasons…that I am so draw to you; yeah I’m sure it is, you’re so caring. You and Hinamori both are like that. They are both kind and caring…it draws me to both of you.

…I think I found my answer. I will not give up; not on these feelings, I will not give up. It may sound pushy; but…I will force you not to turn away anymore; I will force you to see, I am not give up. Even with your curse…you have the right to be happy…and I will make sure you are.

It had been hours now…I guess I would have to give up for today. I slowly left the world tree.

“I know…your avoiding me…” I whispered to myself. “And…you can’t avoid me forever.” I whispered again.

I guess truly avoiding me wasn’t really true; it was more like…she was hiding from me. She was hiding her reiatsu as much as she could.

Most likely…so I can’t find her.

And you know what?

It was working.

“Damnit…” I cussed as I entered the office. “Oh? Captain…? Where have you been?” Matsumoto asked me. “…Out for a walk…” I growled as I made my way to my desk; I hit my hands on my desk.

Damnit…why does she always have to be…so stubborn?!

“Captain…?” Matsumoto asked.

“Matsumoto…Get to work now!” I yelled as I quickly started to fill out a report. “…Why are you so angry?” She asked. “I’m not angry! Didn’t I just give you an order?!” I asked.

“Captain…what’s wrong?”

“n-nothing wrong…” I sighed laying my head on my desk.

“Captain…”

“Just get to work and leave me alone…”

“…Did, Hime-chan do something wrong?” I quickly glared at her. “Ah, is that a yes?” She asked. “No, this isn’t about her…” I told her looking away, “Captain, Captain if you’re going to lie you have to be good at it.”

“Shut up!”

“But…”

“This isn’t about her! Are you listening or not?!” I asked. “Hmm…she wasn’t at the world tree?”

“No…she wasn’t-…ah, I mean…” I lifted my head up looking toward her. “Ah, I see…I see…” I glared at her. “You’re thinking too much, things aren’t like that!” I told her.

“Let?”

“Matsumoto…” I growled.

“Hmm…ah! She maybe checking up on the 3rd, 5th and 9th divisions!” Matsumoto smiled. “How do you know that?” I asked. “Oh, I kinda overheard Hime-chan talking to Captain Unohana…” I didn’t know if I should yell at her or not.

“That’s a bad habit, Matsumoto. Do not do that again…” I told her before standing up. “Captain?” She asked, I quickly opened the office door, “I’m going for a walk…takes care of things here when I am out…” I told her before closing the door behind me. “Hai!” Matsumoto slowly shook her head, “you really are bad at lying Captain…very much so…” Matsumoto lightly smiled.

I ran down the hallway; was I wrong? Maybe she wasn’t hiding from me or avoiding me…

Maybe she was just busy…yes that has to be it…right, Sa-san?

At the 3rd division…

“Will this duty be any problems for you, Kira Izuru?” Hime asked the vice captain. “Of course not, Hime-sama. Until a new captain is found…I will be the acting captain for the time being…” Kira said bowing toward her. “Booo, you’re still too formally.” Hime sighed; “S-Sorry. I apology…I just…” Kira started to say.

“You still can’t tell when I am joking can you?”

“N-No…I can’t Hime-sama, Sorry…”

“Stop apology. It’s annoying.”

“Hai! I’m so-I mean Hai! Hime-sama!”

“Geez…I need to break, you of that habit…” She sighed, “What?” Kira asked. “Nothing. Kira Izuru…after Captain Ichimaru left much damage was left on the 3rd division.” She told him. “Hai, I know this Hime-sama. Do not worry; the squad will not fall apart as long as I am here!”

“That’s better. That’s the kind of talk I wanted to hear!”

“Huh?...what? I don’t understand…” Kira whispered.

“It’s fine. Just do as you said you would. Keep the squad together.” She told him. “Of course, don’t worry they are In good hands, Hime-sama.” Kira bowed toward her again. “I know, I trust you kira, so…do not let me down.”

“Hai!”

“I will take my leave now, to check on the 5th and 9th divisions.” Hime told the vice captain. “I understand good luck Hime-sama.”

“Thank you…I will need it…” She told him before leaving the 3rd division’s office. “…I have no idea what to do with the 5th Division; without a Captain…and they’re Vice Captain in a coma…” Hime sighed. “Hinamori…I hope you don’t remember him when you do wake up…” Hime whispered to herself as she left the 3rd division.

The 9th division would be the next one to deal with; she would have Hisagi shuuhei act as the captain of that division until a captain is found; just like…Kira would act as the captain of the 3rd division for the time being. “What a mess…” She sighed; she was starting to get a headache from all of this.

Everything was a mess…and now…the soul society was done by three captains as well.

Could things get any…? She didn’t want to finish that thought. She needed to hope things would only get better.

“Spirit hime!” A voice called to her but she didn’t hear it, “Spirit hime-sama!” The voice called again. “What?” She asked; she slowly turned around as a shinigami ran up to her. “You’re the spirit hime-sama, right?” The male shinigami asked her. “That would be me…how can I help you?” She asked.

“I am the 6th seat of the 11th division, Bonkaimaster.” He told her. “Ah, Zaraki’s division…what can I help you with, Bonaki?” She asked. “Well really nothing…” He said looking her over. “…Excuse me?” Hime asked.

“I just really wanted to see if…what Vice captain said was true; and it appears it is…” He said stepping closer. “Yachiru?”

“Hai, she said your hair is the color of chocolate.”

“You got to be kidding…” Hime sighed.

“No, I’m not. But I guess that’s really an excuse to check out…you, Hime-sama.” Bonaki whispered taking a hold of some of her hair. “You’re hair is pretty soft…” He whispered to her; she quickly glared at him, “What the hell is wrong with you? Have you no matters?” Hime asked.

“Well…truly no I do not. But…the thought of pointing you down…really drives me.”

“You’re a baka…”

“Oh, how sweet of you to notice; your hair really brings out the color of your eyes.” Hime sighed; as he slowly let go of her hair. “…why don’t’ you stop now, before you embarrass yourself too much, boy.” Hime whispered to the boy before her.

“Boy? I am no boy! I am 115 years old!”

“Yep, you’re a boy.”

“What?!”

“You can take your leave now. Haven’t you embarrassed enough by now?” Hime asked him coldly. “No, I haven’t even started…!” He yelled as he was hit over the head quickly. “Damnit! What the hell?!” He yelled looking behind him, “That’s enough…Bonaki.” Madarame told him.

“Man…Madarame! Why do you always have to show up?”

“Baka, you’re only going to make her angry!”

“Hai, Hai…it was really unbeautiful to start with; to try to go after a flower as Hime-sama is useless.” Ayasegawa spoke up. “I don’t need your, advice!” Bonkai yelled, “Also…you didn’t notice did you?” Ayasegawa asked. “Notice, what?” He asked. “Captain Hitsugaya been glaring at you sense you started.” Ayasegawa whispered to him; He slowly turned around to look toward me.

“If you’re done with your business here leave!”

“Why is he angry?”

“As I said, you really are a baka!” Madarame yelled walking away pulling the 6th seat with him. “Bye, Hime-sama!” Ayasegawa waved to her before following after the two. “Huh? Umm, bye…”

I watched closely as the three left the area, “Baka…” I growled.

“Toushirou?” Sa-san voice asked; I quickly looked toward her and I have to say I was a bit surprised as I looked at her.

Did-Did she cut her hair?!

“W-What? Why are you staring?”

“Sorry…it’s just you cut your hair.” I blush lightly looking away from her.

That guy hadn’t been wrong on one point, her dark hair did help her blue eyes, stand out, I thought.

“Hai, I did.”

“It…It looks nice…”

“Really?”

“Uh huh…it’s short but not too short. It looks good…Sara.” I whispered to her, “Umm…thanks…” I nodded to her.

This wasn’t the reason why…I came to speak with her.

“Sara I need…” I started to say, “I should be going…I still need to check up on the 5th and 9th Divisions…” She told me quickly walking pass me.

Running away again…? I wondered.

“Sara!”

“What?”

“I…I am not moving on.” I plainly told her; I heard her stop in her tracks, “Toushirou…” She whispered to me. “Why do you have to be so stubborn?” She asked me. “I could ask why you keep avoiding me…no running away; this will not just go away! Why can’t you face that?!” I asked.

“Because…we shouldn’t have to even speak about this to begin with…”

“Too bad. I will not move on or forget about you, do you understand?”

“It would be so much easier if you did love, Hinamori…” I heard her sigh. “Sa-san…”

“Don’t call me that, I am no longer Sa-san to you! Just like you are no longer, Shiro-kun to me!” She yelled; I slowly turned around her, “You don’t mean that! You’re just saying that because!”

“SHUT UP!” She yelled; “Do not speak to me so informally again! Nothing will ever happen…EVER! Do you understand?! Give up and move on! I cannot give you a future you wish for!” She yelled.

“Hime…”

“Do not…come near me ever again, Captain Hitsugaya.” She told before disappearing into the wind.

I was…defeated?

I felt myself fall onto my knees, “Never again?” I asked.

She will not let me…not at all. She knew me away; but…I thought finally you understand.

I cannot move on…even if I wanted too. I cannot do that.

It would be so much easier if you did love Hinamori…

I can’t love Hinamori…

She isn’t the person in my heart; you are…can’t you see that?

“It’s not true, because you will always be…Sa-san to me…” I whispered to myself.

Always…

Love is never meant to be easy and always end happily ever after…

No, not in real life; in real life love is full of so many problems…

But…there can be many more problems if one of the people is in dental…

Hime quickly appeared inside her office and as she did; she fell to her knees, “Toushirou…” She whispered to herself.

Dental only adds to the problems; but that one in dental will never agree there is a problem to begin with…

And so…they will try to ignore the problem and hope for it to disappear on its own…

But…

Problems do not just disappear…into thin air. Things just don’t work that way.

Maybe one day…that lesson will be learned.

“Hime-sama, you’re back.” Istar greeted her as she entered the office. “Yes, I am what is it?” Hime asked as she stood up.

Running away from the problem will not work as well…

“Well…I know you don’t wish to hear this. But coming up in two days…the locations of the king’s seal will be moved again, a squad will be needed to watch over the move.” Istar told her. “Again? It always comes around too, quickly…” Hime sighed as she sat down at her desk.

Running away is only running from the true problem after all…The easy way out…one would call it.

“Hime-sama? Is something the matter? You look as something is on your mind…” Istar asked, “No, it’s nothing importation. But…just thinking about the king’s seal…makes me feel sick.”

Running away, because you can’t face what problem is truly before you…

Yes, that is truly the easy way out…

“What squad would you like to take care of the king’s seal, this year?”

But one day, you will find a way to deal with the problem…

You like it or not…

“10th squad…” Hime sighed as she turned away from Istar to look out the window, “Captain Hitsugaya division? Is there any reason, why you picked that division?” Istar asked.

“…no.”

But for now, you will go on lying and acting as nothing is wrong…

Because that is how you are…

“Very well, I will go give the mission to the 10th squad, then…” Istar told her before disappearing from Hime’s office.

You are so stubborn…

A very stubborn person…

“I’m sorry, Toushirou…” She whispered as tears ran down her face.

Apology will not help you…

Saying I’m sorry…will not help you be forgiven…

Because you have hurt the person closely to you…

Because you have hurt him…very much…

“The King’s seal?” I asked Matsumoto. “Hai, it’s a mission for the whole 10th squad from…Hime-chan.” She told me.

Tch…trying to keep me away and busy huh?

Baka…

“I see…” I quickly turned away looking out the window, “Captain? Is something wrong?” Matsumoto asked.

“No, not at all.”

You’re really a baka…you really think; keeping me busy will stop me?

Baka…

“Go, get the squad ready. We leave at 12 hundred hours.”

“Hai, Captain.” Matsumoto said before leaving the office.

“Baka…I will not give up. I will make you face me when this mission is over; and…I will not let you run away again, Sa-san…”

Yes, that what I told myself; but I had no idea how serious this mission would turn out to be; my past and my present were about to connect to each other…

And…I wasn’t ready to face them both.